These last few days I have been trying once and for all to figure out why I haven't been able to wrap my head around getting in shape and losing the weight that I so desperately need to. I have been over this in my head so many times I think the hamster went off the wheel until the dizziness stopped. I am thankful that I have a husband who loves me for me but he sometimes doesn't understand that I don't love me for me and I need to change that. I have decided that the reason is simple - I'm afraid. I have tried many other times to lose weight only to fail and I am scared that once again that history will repeat itself. I need to find my courage and attack this once and for all. I think that I am almost there and I hope once there - I will be able to return to TOPS for the real work.
This weekend I have to work but at least on Saturday I can live it up at Jayne's backyard bash! Good times will be had and I am bringing a pasta salad to add to the great food that will be there. I hope everyone finds their own way to enjoy the weekend and the nice weather!